Sunday, November 9, 2008

Day 82 on Lexapro.

Day 60 on Lamictal.

posted much, much later…

This night, E. Liz and Doug and I went to see Kathy Griffin perform her stand-up comedy act. I was so excited, but the realization that I was going to see her didn’t hit until right before we left.

When it hit, though, energy coursed through my veins.

And I was thrilled.

As we sat in our seats, the anticipation was too much.

I could not wait.

Then she walked onto the stage.

In mass delight, we all leapt to our feet and clapped and yelped and clapped some more.

And as I stood there, thrilled beond compare, it hit me like a ton of bricks.

This is what I had wanted to do.

For so long, this is what I had wanted to be.

This had been my passion. My dream.

But it hadn’t come to pass.

And, in a way that I hadn’t before, I realized…

…that I was okay with that.