Looking back now, I know I had been depressed as a kid. I think it probably started at around the age of ten. I don’t remember if there was a life-changing event that happened then, or if maybe that was just the point when my brain didn’t know how to function anymore. Yes, there were [...]
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Day 12 on Lexapro.
10:49 pm
11:30am ~ Today I am sitting here, allowing my mind go to the Wastelands again because I have too much time on my hands. At the same time, I’m all anxious because I feel like this is the only free day I have to get everything done.
And [...]
Friday, August 22, 2008
Day 11 on Lexapro.
10:10 pm
Don’t get your hopes up because I’m wearing lipstick today.
Amazing. How can I complain? Today was certainly not the best day I’ve had, but, compared to its predecessors, it was pretty damn good.
First, I slept well. I even slept all night. I woke up at 2:30am, [...]
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Day 9 on Lexapro.
written 2 days later.
Rain hypnotizes me and makes me feel like magic.
This was the first day I woke and did not find myself in the midst of a constant panic attack. It was both amazing and foreign at the same time. What is more, I had almost slept [...]
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Day 8 on Lexapro.
9:54pm
Today my heart hurts. Emotionally and physically. Shards of something I thought was real pierce my bare feet, and I bleed. I thought I was more calloused than that. I thought I was tougher. I thought I could withstand this kind of pain and keep moving forward. Damn heart. [...]
I felt an overwhelming feeling of sadness…and frustration…and disappointment. The disappointment I felt was born of the fear that I had so sorely disappointed others and was less inspired by any disappointments that might have come my way…though I felt pain from those, too. These feelings weighed upon me and covered me like a heavy, [...]
