Friday, August 29, 2008

Day 18 on Lexapro.

11:07pm

The past three mornings, I have actually gotten out of bed before it was absolutely necessary. In recent weeks, I had started rising approximately ten minutes before I went to work, leaving just enough time to throw on some wrinkled clothes, ponytail my hair, and brush my teeth. I’m not saying this won’t continue in the future, but I do see getting up earlier as a pleasant change.

I started my work day at the local grocery store so I could purchase some items for our monthly networking luncheon. At first, I was excited. Frankly, I enjoyed being somewhere other than the office. When I couldn’t find what I needed, it was no big deal. I happily trucked over to another grocery store. Then, I went into the office. But, we still didn’t have everything we needed. So, I ran back to the grocery store.

Then, back to the office.

Upon my return, I raced around to organize all the minor details that contribute to a successful networking luncheon.

Then I lapsed into a massive panic attack.

I closed the door to my office and sat at my desk. I could not breathe. My eyes blurred and my heart clenched. I felt like I was going to vomit.

I was so tired.

As the day wore on, the attacks continued. In this case, I think they were brought on by too much physical exertion.

I am still going to have to be careful.

But I am getting better.